Friday, 11 February 2011

the holy day of friday

since joining the church of the flying spaghetti monster i have not yet had the opportunity to celebrate it as it is said in the gospel of the FSM... that is untill now. because i have the flu and have as a result stayed at home meaning i have full filled one of the FSM's wishes to take it easy (i didnt realise this till just before lunch) i have decided to eat some spaghetti meatballs that i got from the co-op also as it is said in the gospel; i have drawn myself a pint of grog (beer) to accompany my holy meal... unforunately i have no wenches to hand but im sure that i have conducted myself in a way that would make his noodlyness proud of this humble pirate. the microwave just pinged so i shall go and begin my worship / lunch. i wish you all a wonderful friday!

Thursday, 10 February 2011

Bored and ill

well i spent a few hours this morning doing my work in study / playing minecraft for 90 % of the time. and i realised just how bored with school i am. every day its pretty much the same thing. its gotten to the point where my english coursework has been sitting in my desktop for months waiting for me to do something with it. i want to give up and go out and get a job to try to fulfill my new years resolution of moving out; but of course that would close the door to uni and to a more prosperous future.

i think once i get out of sixth form i will be completely done with education; i want to get a full time job with some good pay and enjoy life before i have to settle down. unfortunately i will suffer from the bad grades i got during my time as a GCSE student. i dont know what brought on this sudden urge to finnish with my studies but it is strong.

i was surprised to see how cheap some flats are in this area when i looked at it on google; with the cheapest being luton (i wonder why) my aspiration to move out has become a lot more real to me, i will however be forced to have a flat mate to help bear the burdon of bills but my goals are not unrealistic (which is a start). ideally i would like a place next to the river but such appartments are rather costly. to be honest though i dont really care so long as it has electrisity and is mine; a place where i can be myself and do what i want.

someone asked me "wouldnt you rather just get a car?"... the answer, in short is no; the idea of living by myself is too attractive.

there are i admit, things i will miss when that happens though. The ball of fur (my dog) snoring gently by my side being up there with the things that i will miss most. but there are also otherm non material things that will be sorely missed too. Such things include the lack of resposability that i have enjoyed for much of my life up to this point. the things that i will not be able to afford when i move out, like the extremely good connection to the internet i  have at the moment. gaming will become very difficult if i have to downgrade.

but the more i look at the situation the more i see that i need to move on from this life of ignorance and comfort that have defined me for so long. i want to experience the simple pleasure of truely owning the roof above my head. i want to have the ability to do what i want (within reason) and not have to answer to my parents or any other of my 'peers'. however i feel i dwell on this too much.

one thing that has really caught my attention recently is just how shit weekend television is. it seems that Jeremy Kyle rules the airaves with his entertainment that he likes to call therapy, how many conflicts have been truely resolved on that damn show? despite me being a die hard trekkie even channel one (before it dissapeared from TV) has been pissing me off so much. im all for a 'Voyager' marathon but all they do is play the exact same episodes that they played during the week; all it is is them trying to make more money by giving the people less. the same goes for E4 and 'Scrubs'

i should probably go now, i have a very tired doggy lying across me that really needs to be getting to bed. i too should also be getting to bed. till next time...

Wednesday, 9 February 2011

Unable to sleep

unfortunately due to an inability to sleep i have decided to try to make myself more tired by writing in my new blog for my new audience.

i know i made the promise in my last post that i was going to tone down the political ramblings but i feel i just have to comment on this; nick clegg decided to face up to his critics (students) and completely ballsed it up. the aggrivation of the students that were allowed to question him became very apparent during his interview when he refused to apologise for lying to his electorate. however i shall end that there for those that have no wish to listen to me rant about how much of a mistake the current govenment is. perhaps i shall start up another blog on my profile so that i may deal with such issues there. i wont decide that now though, it is far to late.

i keep findng myself in the position of going to bed at silly hours of the morning due to lack of sleep or too much to do before i turn in for the night; this keeps resulting in my being late to school. lucky for me, today is the day before a morning of study so we shant worry about that too much.

i tried my newest brew of beer today and was pleasently surprised with how it turned out. my last brew was a little on the sweet side (which i am convinced was because it was too cold for brewing) but this time it is more like a really nice ale.

i have not yet come up with any good ideas for posts on this blog yet so for now they will be like this. i have been toying with the idea of posting short stories that i would write either at school or at home. i must be careful though. there are a few people who alreay do this; 'Chronicles of Clunge'* being my personal favourite.

my goal in this post it too keep writing as much as possible to help me get more tired. its such a shame that im an insomniac (and have a blocked nose due to a cold). i wonder if there are aby viable home remedies for insomnia, i shall have to google that later. i dont like the idea of all the doctor prescribed medicated tranquilisers which dont really allow you to sleep; they work by making you unconcious, which means that i would be unable to reach the stage of sleep known as 'REM sleep' (REM stands for 'Rapid Eye Movement' and refers to the stage of sleep where you can dream). without REM sleep you could become mentally unstable which sounds rather unpleasent.

anyway i think i have sufficiently managed to tire myself out so i shall bid you goodnight for now.

* written by a friend of mine it is a read i really recommend... however if you are young or of the faint of heart it probaly isnt for you

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

A new Blog/Start

after reading the blogs of a friend of mine on this website i have decided to jump on the bandwagon and relocate my thoughts here. this is for a few reasons; 1. this site seems more like a social networking site than a normal blog, which im hoping will give me a larger audience than the one person every month or so that i have been just about achieving on wordpress but i think the main reason that i am relocating here is that blogger allows quite a bit more.

anyway enough of that there are some rather important things i feel i should cover in my first post on a new blog. firstly would be a shameless plug of my old blog; got that? good! now that that part is out of the way we can move on. the second point i wish to convey in this, the first post relates rather nicely to my first point. it is of course an explanation. as i have already mentioned, wordpress does not allow the same social connectivity that blogger allows so i have decided to relocate here to try to get my ramblings noticed by a few more people than none at all. i decided (around about the same time i decided to breath new life into this old blogger account) that i shall leave all my posts on wordpress where they are.

this new blog i am taking the opportunity to change my blogging style, i feel that my old blog was getting quite samey; more often than not, featuring me getting on my soapbox about the conservative government (if however you feel inclined to check that out i am leaving it where it is for all to see). i want to focus this blog more on the mind of me; which is why (for those who know me) i am making ideas for this blog the primary function of my old excercise book; the rather unusually named "james' gay book of gay stuff". a name prescribed to it by a guy in my english class.

in order to conclude this short but (hopefully) sweet post i wish to tell you this; if this blog sounds like something that would interest you, then please read on and enjoy. If however this sound like it really isnt your cup of tea (or coffee depending on your preferences) then please read on anyway; it is my hope that you will be pleasently surprised